I have an album of photos on my phone spanning from years ago of times that I felt I looked good or really felt happy in my skin so I'd document it in a photo. I didn't take them for others to necessarily see but mainly because it was a boost to my confidence knowing that some days I was happy in my skin. For a while now not only have I not added to that album but I haven't even looked through it, to remind my self that I do love myself and I do feel good in my own skin. It's got nothing to do with not being fit or shy about my body, it's the fact that I don't look at myself and think "you're worth it. You're worth all the happiness in the world"
With the advice from a very close friend I've made the decision for myself to start treating myself better. To curb the critical analysing of myself and to start looking at myself with nothing but a positive light. Here's to the path of #selflove#innerpeace#findingmyself
Karma. How people treat you is their Karma, but how you react back is yours. Life will always test us – some days are good, some days so challenging that we look up shouting ‘Why! Why! Why!’ If you truly look deep within other people's actions that cause a negative impact on you, you will clearly see that it has absolutely nothing whatsoever to do with you. Once you truly grasp this, you can simply move on without wasting a moment looking and searching deeply for the answers. Don't you think it's about time that other people's weaknesses should have absolutely no effect on your beautiful life? You, my dear friend, shouldn't waste one more moment on other people who try to throw their stuff at you. Please do yourself and your heart a huge favour today – and forever more – and let them go... Today, surround yourself with beautiful people who love you for exactly who you are, so you can love them back for exactly who they are. I truly hope you understand this message as it can only have a positive impact on your life and health if you allow it to. You deserve a happy life from this moment onwards. You are so beautiful.
The biggest issue for me with regard to opinions is that once we are convinced we know something, we fight, we attack, we blame, we mock, we belittle …. but WHY? Because we fear being wrong. That, my dear friends, is what you call slowing down progress for the good of man/woman/animal kind. We should first start by looking into each other’s hearts and saying, “Whatever topic we talk about, we will place the love for each other above everything we believe to be true.” Now that would be refreshing and an amazing place to start. Even better, it would clear the dark energies that try to divide us. There is no wrong or right... it's all a learning path for each of us, to make a difference for our family under one sun. We are brothers and sisters of this world.
Day 27 of #100daysofbeingenough . Yesterday and today we worked to clean, organize, and remove the most personal objects from our living room and kitchen in order to take staged photos for when we are ready to list our house for rent/sale. I've been having some intense bodily feelings on and off. Not things I can identify as "I am feeling sad" but rather intense stomach aches and nausea. I know they're emotional, they're just at a level below classification. I've been kind to myself by stretching those sore parts, lots of breathing, and slowing down and attending to them when they came up. 🌌
Today, as we were taking posters off the kitchen walls I looked deeply at this vision board that I made six years ago and the feelings intensified and I was also able to name some of them. Regret. Guilt. Shame. Disappointment. Like a failure.
See, we thought this was our forever home. And I had SO MANY PLANS. Too many to be realistic if I'm honest. But I thought we had more time to make them happen here. And I felt regret and guilt (and some of that shame) at not working harder to make them happen. I have had so much time and I've chosen to spend quite a bit of it on things that really weren't that important. And now we are out of time here. 🌌
When I reminded myself that I am enough, even though I didn't complete everything I'd wanted to, things softened a bit. And I saw that, while we never did create 'A thriving family home business from our hearts, our hands, and the land' I did experience and learn how to do many of the other things on the vision board. I started creating and painting to a much deeper degree than I had before. I learned to more easily adapt, be open to change, and shine my light. Really, in the last 6 years that light has gotten clearer and more refined and I have learned to honor and nourish it. I have learned how to accept support and how to better support myself. The last 6 years have seen huge growth in me, even though I never accomplished growing and selling enough food to help support our family. But I think the growth that's harder to see that DID happen has certainly been enough to launch us into our next chapter. And I am grateful. 💓