"May your choices reflect your hope Not your Fears." Nelson Mandela
This is me getting up the courage to pet the pigs. I have always had a fear of animals for some reason and now I am surrounded by them. This picture is funny but is the best picture to describe the process that is going on within.
After years of trying to be the strong and capable one as we went through crisis after crisis, I am finally letting down.
I wish I could say I am doing it gracefully and beautifully and all the things I have learned about rest and Trust were shaping this process.
But for some reason God has designed me as a fighter and friends it is not pretty.
Not matter what it looks like, this choice of revealing my weakness and allowing myself to confront my emotions, is out of a hope that this process will allow me to become more of the person God designed me to be.
A person that can love deeply, freely and give grace to myself and others.